The following essay appeared in an issue of Parabola Magazine (Spring 1997), dedicated to the theme of "Ways of Knowing."

At the Center
by Eliezer Shore


Rabbi Yosef, the son of Rabbi Yehoshua ben Levi, fainted and died, but was revived."What did you see?" his father asked him.
"I saw an upside-down world. The high ones were low and the low ones were high."
"My son, you saw a clear world. And as for us Torah scholars, how were we?" "Just as we are thought of here, so we are thought of there." he said.

 

Babylonian Talmud: Bava Batra 10b

In the second chapter of Mishneh Torah, Maimonides' classic compendium of Jewish Law and Belief, the author begins a discussion of "matters exceedingly deep, beyond the grasp of the average person . . . matters that the mouth cannot utter, the ear cannot hear, nor the heart clearly understand." Having previously discussed G-d's Oneness and Transcendence, the great sage now turns to a discussion of G-d's way of knowing, and the vast difference between that and our own: "The Holy One does not know with a knowledge outside of Himself, as do we, for we and our knowledge are not one. Rather, the Creator, His Knowledge and His Life are One . . . Therefore, He does not know creatures as we know them, rather, He knows them because of Himself. He knows Himself, and therefore knows all. . . ."

It has always seemed to me that these words are more significant for what they say about us than what they say about G-d, for they suggest to us an alternative way of knowing. As though this present moment holds within it two perspectives, from below and from above, and that it is possible to change the direction of our thought. For if human existence is somehow swept up in G-d's act of self-knowledge, then the true nature of our consciousness is very different than we presently experience it. Maimonides' words contain a subtle challenge -- to overturn our perception and know ourselves not as we do now, but as beings known by G-d.

In the writings of later commentators, this idea from Mishneh Torah is expanded upon: "We and our knowledge are not one." That is, there is an essential difference between what we are and what we know. Knowledge is not intrinsic to us, but received from without. It is gathered one detail at a time, each point we learn adding information that was not there before, until a complete picture is formed. However, the opposite must be said of G-d. Since there is nothing outside of Him, knowledge cannot add anything to His essence. His knowledge of creation is therefore not acquired, but part of His knowledge of Himself. In Maimonides' words: "He is the knower, the known and the act of knowing."

But there is a deeper allusion in these words. To say that our knowledge of reality is collected over time means that it is the individual's consciousness that is constantly assembling reality into an intelligible whole. The world becomes meaningful to me as I construct it within, and precisely because of my perception, life is invested with value and importance. To put it more simply, in the very act of knowing, I create the universe -- with myself at its center.

This generates a moral problem, and also a cognitive one. It means that wherever we look, we see only ourselves; that we are boxed in by our own mode of perception. For in judging the world, we naturally favor those things that strengthen our ego, and reject those things that challenge it. In the Guide for the Perplexed, Maimonides writes that before the Fall, Adam and Eve perceived creation in the objective terms of truth and falsehood. After the sin they perceived it in terms of good and bad, as though the fall of man can be understood as a fall into subjectivity.

This is not only how we relate to the world, even spiritual growth can become defined in terms of personal goals. The constant desire for "higher" realization can also be an expression of the ego. What has been termed "spiritual materialism" is really a result of the self assigning meaning to reality -- even to G-d! We live in an upside-down world, in which even the Creator becomes subsidiary to our will and desires. To switch perspectives and see the world from the true viewpoint is the real goal of spiritual work. If not, then all of our knowledge, including that of the spirit, will be interpreted through the criteria of the self.

Practically speaking, the importance of religious traditions lies in their ability to diminish our self-attachment and establish the proper relationship between G-d and the world. It is said of the revelation at Sinai that G-d had to force the Israelites to accept the Torah; its demands were so much beyond their ability to comprehend. It forced them into a new mode of thinking; it forced them into a new order of relationship. Yet, by placing G-d at the center of reality, the Torah breathes life into creation. It presents the seeker with a body of laws and ethics that can radically transform his world view.

Ultimately, spiritual growth is not about the self at all. The real work begins when we step out of the center and define ourselves within a larger framework of meaning. As Rabbi Israel of Salant, one of the great ethical teachers of the last century said, "Caring for the other fellow's physical needs fulfills my spiritual ones." Life then becomes defined in terms of others: family, community, humanity and ultimately, the Oneness and Presence of the Divine.

But in order to reach this final stage -- the transcendence of the self as final mediator of truth -- one must be ready to die for it. If spiritual practice does not tear down one's conception of the world, if it does not uproot the foundations of one's perception and rebuild them from the top down, if it does not change in the most fundamental way the nature of how a person thinks, then one is quite literally doing it backwards. "The Torah only lives in one who kills himself over it," says the Talmud. For the Torah's goal is to stand reality on its head, to destroy the world and rebuild it in the Divine image. "Behold, I have put My words in your mouth . . . to root out and to pull down, to destroy and to overthrow -- in order to build and to plant" (Jeremiah 1).

Only in the moment when everything that we know is overturned, can we see the world from a true perspective, in a context of Oneness and as a manifestation of the Divine will. In the moment when self-preoccupation ceases, we become vessels for something much greater. "As clay in the potter's hand, so are you in My hand, O house of Israel" (Jeremiah 18:6). From this higher vantagepoint, life's purpose is to invest all creation with G-d's Glory, and to promote unity among all its components. This knowledge is not separate from G-d, but Divinity itself, it is the very life of creation.

And so, Rabbi Yosef, the son of Rabbi Yehoshua ben Levi, saw an upside-down world -- a clear world -- from a perspective very different than our own. But only when he died to the fiction of this present reality as the center of existence. Only when we can die to this world, as did R. Yosef, can we behold a true picture of reality. Then, one is freed from the self as dictator of meaning, to become a vessel for the Holy One -- knowing ourselves as we are known from Above. As the verse says, "Every one that is called by My Name; I have created him for My Glory; I have formed him, yea I have made him" (Isaiah 43:7).


(C) Eliezer Shore, Bas Ayin


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